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I recently had a minor bipolar episode, which thank G-d is mostly under control now as far as I can tell. However, it made me realize that there are a number of things in my life that I am not quite content about. I’m not unhappy with things, but some things can definitely be better. One of the main things is that I seem to have fallen back into the habit of letting life happen to me, rather than being in charge of it. This needs to change. And in that vein, I want to be serious about rejoining the fandom world, and engaging in my special interests in an active way. I am tired of feeling that I don’t contribute. It’s going to be hard because I am still very unsure about Tumblr etiquette and how things work here(if anyone want to give me a primer, I would be very grateful.)

The first step is to start writing again - blogging, poetry and the occasional fic. I did write a series of Discworld haiku last week, and it felt very good to do that. I plan to write, and hopefully post, at least 200 words everyday, except Friday and Saturday. Some I will post on Tumblr, some on Dreamwidth, some on both. I still need to figure out how much of my life I want to blog about. When I started blogging as a teenager I was, well, a teenager. Add to that I was dealing with culture shock, a new bipolar diagnosis, and learning how to navigate a large social world with hidden Autism. My blog was not pretty. I look back at it and I really wonder how I managed to make the friends I did, and even keep some of them till now. I am not that person any more, but in some ways I still am.