https://qtheallpowerful.dreamwidth.org/ qtheallpowerful - Dreamwidth Studios Fri, 11 Oct 2019 21:38:47 GMT LiveJournal / Dreamwidth Studios qtheallpowerful personal https://v2.dreamwidth.org/13283860/3537913 https://qtheallpowerful.dreamwidth.org/ 100 100 https://qtheallpowerful.dreamwidth.org/3229.html Fri, 11 Oct 2019 21:38:47 GMT https://qtheallpowerful.dreamwidth.org/3229.html I have so many thoughts inside my head, some on fandom, some on life, some just thoughts. And I want them out. I want to share them, but maybe not with the whole world. I want to write again, on paper so that it will be there from people to find when I am dead. Or even for me to find when I am old, and will remember things and feelings that no longer apply.<br /><br />But I can't. I can't find the time, the energy, the motivation. And so they stay here in my mind, tormenting me and hurting.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=qtheallpowerful&ditemid=3229" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments https://qtheallpowerful.dreamwidth.org/3229.html writting public 0 https://qtheallpowerful.dreamwidth.org/1114.html Tue, 23 Jul 2019 03:22:17 GMT https://qtheallpowerful.dreamwidth.org/1114.html I recently had a minor bipolar episode, which thank G-d is mostly under control now as far as I can tell. However, it made me realize that there are a number of things in my life that I am not quite content about. I’m not unhappy with things, but some things can definitely be better. One of the main things is that I seem to have fallen back into the habit of letting life happen to me, rather than being in charge of it. This needs to change. And in that vein, I want to be serious about rejoining the fandom world, and engaging in my special interests in an active way. I am tired of feeling that I don’t contribute. It’s going to be hard because I am still very unsure about Tumblr etiquette and how things work here(if anyone want to give me a primer, I would be very grateful.)<br /><br />The first step is to start writing again - blogging, poetry and the occasional fic. I did write a series of <a href="https://archiveofourown.org/works/19866688">Discworld haiku</a> last week, and it felt very good to do that. I plan to write, and hopefully post, at least 200 words everyday, except Friday and Saturday. Some I will post on Tumblr, some on Dreamwidth, some on both. I still need to figure out how much of my life I want to blog about. When I started blogging as a teenager I was, well, a teenager. Add to that I was dealing with culture shock, a new bipolar diagnosis, and learning how to navigate a large social world with hidden Autism. My blog was not pretty. I look back at it and I really wonder how I managed to make the friends I did, and even keep some of them till now. I am not that person any more, but in some ways I still am.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=qtheallpowerful&ditemid=1114" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments https://qtheallpowerful.dreamwidth.org/1114.html writting discworld life fanfic public 0