Wanting to Write

I have so many thoughts inside my head, some on fandom, some on life, some just thoughts. And I want them out. I want to share them, but maybe not with the whole world. I want to write again, on paper so that it will be there from people to find when I am dead. Or even for me to find when I am old, and will remember things and feelings that no longer apply.

But I can't. I can't find the time, the energy, the motivation. And so they stay here in my mind, tormenting me and hurting.